poem

She has the tough as nail presence
And talks like one of society's menace
The friend to back you up in an alley dark
One that has kindeness from the heart
The type you know will be there for life
One who you can trust with your wife
The type of friend you want all the world of joy
The kind of friend who let people know when they annoy
The friend I want to know and trust and be true
The kind of friend I found in you.


Thank you for letting us get to know you these past weeks and I hope to have so many more in the future. You are a special lady and deserve the best, I only hope you find it.

bored again

So once again I am sitting here bored on my ass rather than work. I had a few associates threaten the ass I am sitting on if I went in with a severe kicking. I did get to see South Park. Guess it's not all bad.
I was also informed that I will not really be helping in the moving process. I love my wife and my friends for making sure I am ok. Damn is it boring though. I finally did take some meds today for the pain. When I was driving earlier I could feel all the muscles and tendions twiching in my leg. Not a pleasant feeling really.

mmmmmsss

Just a really quick one. I got a call from a co worker ( I feel so sorry for her, trying to handle my job-she has no patience) and it woke Kat. First, it is comforting to know that they care and worry about me, something you don't see alot of in Wal-mart. Second, I went in to lay down with my wife(sorry about the girlfriend remarks early- it's only been a month!) and the way she holds my hands, pushes her body against mine, and sighs a contented mmmmmmm just sends smiles all over my insides. Even with a bum leg, she is comforted by my presence in the bed. And she wonders why I tell her she is so special. mmmmmmmmm

Pain sucks

So after much debating earlier tonight, I went to the hospital after all. I have torn ligaments in my knee, and I would have made it worse if I had just gone to work like I was thinking of doing. So thanks many times to the people at work who harrassed me to file paperwork, to my girlfriend for saying "you can't even stand at the sink to do dishes... get your shoes on." and to my wonderful friend for bringing me and waiting to drink her wine until we all got home safe. You know, the type of friend you want with you in a dark alley.
So now here I am, bored with the TV already, leg bound up in a cast(so it's not THAT exciting), and slight pains every now and then when the leg twists just right. I am yet again debating the going to work arguement in my head. I hate sitting here doing nothing, but it is time to heal that I know I will not give myself otherwise. I feel useless here. After a long work week, I have no problems sitting down for the night and relaxing, you feel you deserve that after busting for 11 hours four nights in a row. But I have only gone one and a half nights before I did this. Now I just want to feel useful again. Plus there is the move this weekend and I got told not to lift anything real heavy. Knowing the people helping us and more importantly my girlfriend, I will be lucky to do anything other than catch cats and hold doors. This is why pain sucks so much. The lack of usefulness until being fully healed. The stubbornness I have to push past pain and get done what needs to be done, focusing after on how much it hurts. Thats when the pain is justified, not sitting here on my ass typing. Especially not in the knee.
Not much to do though other than wait it out. My friends won't let me do much more. I love them so much for that. Without the friends I have, I would be a bundle of pain all the time, or sitting here for longer than a week with my knee wrapped up in a cheap brace. Thank you for keeping an eye on me and a reasonable voice in my head when my own fails.

Long night

Wal-mart can take alot out of you. I was only there half my night and I am still sore and hurting this morning. I think my boss was mad at me for leaving, but I had faith in my associates to get the job done, I just wish he could feel the same way. Any how, it doesn't matter now. I feel kinda bad about last night too. I snapped at my niece and I didn't mean to. I explained to her and apoligized after, but it still bothered me for awhile at work. There is a lot of moving to do, not much time to do it in, and now it's raining. Just our luck. Plus the house is a war zone right now with the boxes, trash, and clothes scattered around. I know it's suppose to look like this, but it still drives me nuts to look at it daily. Plus I haven't done dishes in a bit. I hope to do them later today, after sleeping. Anyway, that is all for the first post. Hopefully more tommrrow after work.